I hate having crushes, really, I really do.  I get my hopes up, the heart flutters, and then there's no confidence to go, "Hey, I like you a lot, is that mutual?"  Rejection is a terrible fear of mine and it's also a terrible hinderance.  I'd like to hope that someday I'll overcome it.  However, with that same hope, I'm hoping that the guy would be the first to "profess" feelings.  A lot of girls go, "Oh my gosh, I'm so old fashioned, he's gotta tell me that he likes me first!"  But they're lying, girls are typically much more insecure than guys, and they are just way too fearing of rejection to try.  I, I am rejection fearing, I'll admit that I'm insecure, but at least I'm fessing up to it.
   
    On a more logical, less whiny and emotional note, I'm preparing for the PSAT on Saturday!  Sure I feel like an absolute idiot to be starting my studying on the Wednesday before... but I just kicked major ass on the PSAT practice vocabulary section... and maybe that'll surmount to something.

    And... I might have done o.k. on my Hon. Physics pop quiz today... which is a real encouragement since it struck me totally off guard.  School started at one in the afternoon even, (crazy schedule this week) I was tuned out to begin with.

    Also... Psychology 101 got cancelled for Thursday, so I have to wait until next Tuesday for it to start.  Makes me sad, but another part of me knows that I could very easily end up hating that class despite my love for psychology.