I hate having crushes, really, I really do.  I get my hopes up, the heart flutters, and then there's no confidence to go, "Hey, I like you a lot, is that mutual?"  Rejection is a terrible fear of mine and it's also a terrible hinderance.  I'd like to hope that someday I'll overcome it.  However, with that same hope, I'm hoping that the guy would be the first to "profess" feelings.  A lot of girls go, "Oh my gosh, I'm so old fashioned, he's gotta tell me that he likes me first!"  But they're lying, girls are typically much more insecure than guys, and they are just way too fearing of rejection to try.  I, I am rejection fearing, I'll admit that I'm insecure, but at least I'm fessing up to it.
   
    On a more logical, less whiny and emotional note, I'm preparing for the PSAT on Saturday!  Sure I feel like an absolute idiot to be starting my studying on the Wednesday before... but I just kicked major ass on the PSAT practice vocabulary section... and maybe that'll surmount to something.

    And... I might have done o.k. on my Hon. Physics pop quiz today... which is a real encouragement since it struck me totally off guard.  School started at one in the afternoon even, (crazy schedule this week) I was tuned out to begin with.

    Also... Psychology 101 got cancelled for Thursday, so I have to wait until next Tuesday for it to start.  Makes me sad, but another part of me knows that I could very easily end up hating that class despite my love for psychology.

    So, AP US is the class I look foward to every morning.  I mean, typically it will vary, a math test will make my outlook on math class negative and so forth, but moreso than any of my other classes, I'm always happy to go to AP US.
    Firstly, it's a lecture class, we take notes, I'm able to just listen and analyze the information from the security of my desk, and I do learn best in that environment.  I tell you, I've never cared for those stupid peer activities.  Working with other people just isn't a beneficial thing for me and it often just ends up being a social hassle, so I'd rather be left alone and do things myself.
    The other core reason why I love AP US is because it could not have been taught by a better teacher, Mr. Moody.  Strict discipline to build respect, and incredible humor to let everyone ease off and really enjoy sitting there just listening to him.  Everything that he does is practical, lectures and reading that teach, worksheet activities that reinforce, and quizes that measure the intake of the knowledge from the book.  There's no usless crap involved, there's just one goal in mind, acing that AP test.
    Don't get me wrong, I really do like most of my classes, but AP US had stood out most as being "pretty awesome" I must say.  I just can't wait until I can go to college and take lecture classes, or even until October when I take the lectured style Psychology 101 class in the evenings through Pima.  I don't even think I can properly explain my love of lecture classes, but in short, tell me for auditory learning, let me analyze so I can formulate a system/visual in my head, or even provide me with a visual, and keep me disciplined through periodic tests.  Lecture classes are like memory cohesion heaven for me, and anyone will like anything so long as it makes them smart.